I feel like through all of this my mindset has been something I have done a really great job of controlling, harnessing if you will. In the beginning it was very overwhelming (obviously). Something that I consciously did that I think was very helpful, was I made the decision to only allow what I could handle into my frame of mind. There was so much research to be done, and things to be processed, and thoughts to be had. But I sort of turned my brain down a notch, and only allowed a couple things in at once, to be processed, and then put away in my brain. I tried to keep my thoughts organized and well sorted, sort of like moving into a new house. I didn't unpack all the boxes at once. I opened a box, put the stuff away, and when I was ready, I got another box and did the same thing. I feel like I'm about halfway moved into this imaginary house, but I feel good about where my thoughts are going. I know this is a long haul, and I know that it will take a lot of willpower to stay positive and keep my thoughts harnessed and going in the right direction. The good news? I am surrounded by tons of positive people, with so much love and encouragement to give. So when I need it? I'll have that support, I know it. And for now? I'm doing my best to keep it all under control. Because that's just the way I work I guess.